i'm back to single...again...'O' just choose to let me go...O have own reason...and i knew about it...heaven just play a prank on me...heaven just let 'O' and 'G' appear at the same time...to test me...to make fun of me...to make a fool of me...to make me collapse...to give up...and i lose to heaven...i fought very hard....but stil defeated in the end...i lost 'O'...and i dun get 'G' yet...thinking i will oso lost 'G' one day...

love a person is easy...but to maintain this love...is difficult...me and 'O' is perfect lover...but quarrel often occurred...maybe i'm too selfish...? i'm too hot-tempered...? i'm too weak...? i'm too simple minded...? i really dunno...i wanted to maintain this relationship...but heaven just tear us apart...'G' is not to be blame...i choose to like 'G'...and 'G' knew it a couple of hours ago...i confessed to 'G'...and 'O' knows it too...'O' want me to be wif 'G'...this make me more sad...'O' do this cos 'O' love me too much....'O' choose to back off...everything now is a memories...the only thing i got is a spec...a ear ring and a monkey keychain...

i wanted to cry on the MRT...but i control myself...dunno why...when i see 'O' blog when i reach home...my tear just drop...for the firt time...i love a person so deeply...i just love 'O' so much...so much that i cannot control myself...i try to love 'O' now...but i can't....cos seeing him make me more sad....more guilty...just wish heaven will bring me away...why everything have to be like that...? why i have to ruin a good relationship using my own hand...? why can't heaven just let me go and let my love one be wif me....? can heaven just give me a way to live....? please stop it...nicholas cannot take it anymore...

i found a true love....but i didn't treasure it...
i felt regretted after thinking that...
its the ultimate pain in the whole world...

if heaven can give me a chance to turn back...
i will tell 'O' three words...I...LOVE...YOU...

if heaven wanna give me a time limit....
i'll say this love will last for a million years...

曾經有一份至真的愛擺在我面前...我沒珍惜...
失去了才後悔莫及...塵世間最痛苦的莫過於此...

如果老天可以給我一個机會回頭...我會對他說...我愛你...
如果可以在這份愛加上一個期限...我希望是...一萬年...