I've been abused mentally and physically for the past few day . I'm gonna call the SPCA for help !!!

If anyone sees a monkey standing beside me , don't hesitate to give him a punch . Thanks a million . ^^

P.S . I Love You .

* ( No kiss is allow to be given to him . )

Was out with my monkey boy , Shao Wei , for the past few day . Walking round singapore here and there , window shopping etc . Arcade at Jurong Point , Bubble tea at sweet talk . Awww . So fun and confortable to have him around . ^^ . He's so camwhore . Acting cute is one of his special ability . ( He's cute la by nature , everyone said that ) . Lets see how he looked like .








He can happily taking while i'm doing my things . DUH !! THANKS AR !!!!

Thanks to Wan Zhen ar ~ By photoshop-ing this photo and made me the moron of the year . Bitch ~







Last but not least , the ' blue photo ' taken at the Singapore flyer .

童年里 ，有多少美丽 ，又可爱的回忆 。

所以 ，你童年所失去的 ，或者你童年所想要的东西 ，在你有生之年 ，赶快把它找回来 。

能挽回的还好 ，但是有些事 ，有些人 ，一但失去了 ，是无法挽回的 。

就像我现在 ，写出了这一篇文章 ， 一篇埋在我心里许旧的文章 。让我开始吧 。

“ 你曾经是我第一个观众 ，也是我唯一的听众 。只有你愿意陪伴我 ，听我的心里话 。每天回到家 ，第一件事就是希望你在家 。一桌简单又附有家庭温暖的菜肴 。不需山珍海味 ，就算是粗茶淡饭 ，也是辛福 。多亏了你 ，才能把家务事处理的井井有条 。岁月的流失 ，种种的护肤品 ，再也掩盖不住你脸上微微的皱纹 。从小 ，你最疼爱我 。虽然老是和你斗嘴 ，甚自还曾经想过离家出走 。但是 ，最终我发现 ，我还是不能离开你 。

我很好 ，但是还是像以前一样 ， 臭脾气 。每当我们斗嘴 ，我心里就想 ： ” 我像极了你 。“

我还记得 ， 你经常叫我说要长大 。我就回顶嘴 ，”我已经是大人了！“ 现在我已经长大了 ，而且好像是一夜之间长大 。其实我想跟你说：”长大其实一点都不好 。“ 别人不再把我当小孩子 ，我不能随便的闹情绪 。我要对自己所做的事负责 ，也开始要对别人负责 。其实我还没准备好 ，我只是假装我已经长大了 。

你一再的提醒我 ，叫我做一个有用的人 。我很努力的完成我对你的诺言 ，帮助我周围的人 。家人 ，亲人 ， 朋友 ， 陌生人 。我带着我和你的诺言 ， 踏出这个家 。 无时无刻的提醒自已 ：”我要做个有用的人 。“ 一回到家 ，我迫不急待的想把我一天的遭遇告诉你 。我不知道我还能这样子多久 ， 因为天有不测之风云 。 哪怕一天 ，是我或者是你先走了 。 所以乘我和你还在的那一刻 ，我要告诉你 ：”我爱你 ，妈妈 。“

Was watching this movie ' 大話西遊 ' by Stephen Chou . Duration was about 3 hour as there are 2 part of it . Felt touched and learned quite a number of new things after watching it for countless number of time . The plot of this movie , the meaning behind it , the lauguage and wording used in this movie , needs to be understand not by watching this show once but after a number of time . Allow me to show and explain a few things that i've understand after watching it .

In the later part of this movie , there's a part where the lead actor had a conversation with the godness of mercy , talking about ' physical eyes ' and ' mental eyes ' . This can be consider as the theme of this movie . The lead actor ( lets call him ZZB ) , said this : " I used to use my physical eyes to see this world . But during the moment of my death , i started to use my mental eyes to see this world , and everything i've seen is much more clearer . "

(我以前看事物是用肉眼去看。但當我死去的那一殺那，我開始用心眼看這個世界。所有的事物都看得前所未有的清楚。)

Another thing i've figure out is the goldren ring ( 緊箍儿 ) that was locked on Sun Wu Kong's head . After Sun Wu kong attain immortality , the ring eventually disappeared . It is because after the journey , when Sun Wu Kong had fully grown matured , he already had a ' mental ' ( 無形 ) ring on his head , thus the physical ( 有形 ) ring disappeared. Actually , each and everyone of us had a ring on our head . this ring tells us what should we do and what we should NOT do . This ring represent the society , all the rules and the law . When one work within the rules , the ring will not appear . But when one violated the rules , the ring will starts to appear and carry out the punishment . One grow up under this ring , one time after another , learn and correct from these punishment . Till one is clear of everything , the ring will automatically disappear .

Lastly , the poem about my da ge :

自小神通手段高 ，隨風變化逞英豪 。養性修真熬日月 ，跳出轮回把命逃 。

一點誠心曾访道 ，靈台山上采藥苗 。那山有個老仙長 ，壽年十萬八千高 。

老孫拜他為師父 ，指我長生路一條 。他說身內有丹藥 ，外邊采取枉徒勞 。

得傳大品天仙決 ，若無根本實難熬 。回光內照寧心坐 ，身中日月坎離交 。

万事不思全寡慾 ，六根清靜體堅牢 。返老還童容易得 ，超凡入聖路非遙 。

三年無漏成仙體 ，不同俗輩受煎熬 。十洲三島還游戲 ，海角天崖轉一遭 。

活該三百多餘歲 ，不得飛升上九霄 。下海降龍真寶貝 ，才有金箍棒一條 。

花果山前封帥首 ，水簾洞裡聚群妖 。玉皇大帝傳宣詔 ，封我齊天極品高 。

幾番大鬧靈霄殿 ，數次曾偷王母桃 。天兵十万來降我 ，层层密密布槍刀 。

戰退天王歸上戒 ，哪吒負痛領兵逃 。顯聖真君能變化 ，老孫硬賭跌平交 。

道祖觀音同玉帝 ，南天門上看降妖 。卻被老君助一陣 ，二郎擒我到天曹 。

將身綁在降妖柱 ，即命神兵把首剿 。刀砍錘敲不能壞 ，又教雷打火來燒 。

老孫其實有手段 ，全然不怕半分毫 。送在老君爐裡煉 ，六丁神火慢煎熬 。

日滿開爐我跳出 ，手持鐵棒繞天跑 。縱橫到處無遮擋 ，三十三天鬧一遭 。

我佛如來施法力 ，五行山壓老孫腰 。整整壓該五百載 ，幸逢三藏出唐朝 。

吾今皈正西方去 ，轉上雷音見玉毫 。你去乾坤四海問一問 ，我是历代馳名第一妖 !

I have too many things to said . But so little time , and there's really no one to talk to . Pauline got her family problem . Wan Zhen got her relationship problem , and together , both of them have their result to worry about . Syamiran got his school work to worry about . And many other more though .

To : Pauline and Wan Zhen

I've to confess something to you girl . For the past few month since last year , both of you have been a very very very great friend of mine . No matter how we quarrel , how we argue , and how differently we think sometime , our friendship still remain strong and firm .

Both of you are like the pillar of my life . Friends who support me when i'm about to fall . For a friendship to be so strong and firm in just a few month is very difficult . And its easy to be said than done . But i'm glad that we've made it . Both of you have teach me alot of thing , and make me realise thing which i don't use to understand , without you all noticing it .

I always sound so offensive to both of you . making bad remarks on you both . I'm really sorry for any sadness i've cause to the both of you . Remember there's one time i've actually made Pauline cried . Nope , its twice . It really ache my heart when i finally Realize the damaged i've made to you . But trust me , i want to see both of you to succeed in whatever you both are doing . Because , you both are like younger sister to me seriously . And i need the both of you . ^ ^ .


To : Chua Zuo Yi

I believe this is not the first time saying this to you . I'm sorry . Sorry for the damaged done . Sorry for the wound i've cause to you . I've a lot to confess to you too . I wanted to leave temple at first . I don't like the feeling of seeing you giving me sad face . I'm to be blame for that . I've cause too deep hurt to you . I've tried to repent and do something , but i don't know where to start , and what to do . I'm very lost .

When my mum asked me : " where's Zuo Yi ? " I really don't know to answer . I have to give false answer to them . But i'm very happy that you are treating my mother in a respective way . I really wish i can bring you home for dinner one day , to fulfil my promise to my mother . Although we might not be a couple , but , up till now , or rather always , i still wish that we can be very good friend . Just like we used to be . ^ ^ .

This month is like so fun luh ~ and busy though . Having so many program in this month . Chalet , dinner , shopping , working etc ... Gonna make full use of this last month before i go into NS . I'll be missing damn hell lots of people . Firstly , my family , my baby . Secondly , all of my clicks and friend !!! Pauline , Wan Zhen , Yew Hui , Bi Qin all these usual bitches . My ex date and ex-es .

Chalet on the 6th and 7th of december . Hopefully will be a enjoyable one . And on the 8th all my bitches will be celebrating for me . ( waiting eagerly )

Anyone who wants to see or meet me for the one last time before i go botak , please leave a message at my tagboard and book me in advance yeah . I'll be more than wiling to meet u with you all !!

day being booked :

14 th of november , meeting Arvel . dinner maybe ?

?th of december , lunch with lil bro syamiran.

5th of december , dinner at town area with my dearest aunt .

6th of december , chalet at Tanah Merah SAFRA , organise by sis Jeanne .

7th of december , chalet at downtown east ? By Davide and gang .

8th of december , dinner with my bitches . Venue , to be confirm .

I've found out one thing recently that , one can actually influence people of his/her surrounding easily and effectively . One good example wil be ME . As each and every one of my friend knows , Nicholas is someone who is vulgar , rude , hot-tempered and rough little boy . Slowly , his close friends just happily starts to act like him . Pauline Teo Swee Lin , who is a very close friend of him , start to act the same way too . Ni Na Be* , Chee B** , Kar Ni N* , Fuc* start pouring out of her mouth , frequently and fluently . Hmm , so is it something wrong with Nicholas or with pauine ?

( P.S , I never mention Joreen Peh Wan Zhen is because naturallly , she's already a rough girl . Vulgarities are too common for her . Just like Chia Yew Hui . )

F.U.C.K !!!