my new hairstyle.....grr...spend $22 on it man....although not expensive la...

grrrr...today is my O level chinese exam...AND I WAS LATE FOR THE PAPER !!!!

i reach school at around 8.15am...luckily....the teacher let me in...heng !!!

erm...paper 1 was quite easy...can cope wif it...

and most ppl have problem wif paper 2...the last passage...

erm...i admit that its kinda hard...but...still can do la...

heehee...so...relax now...one subject gone...

well..hope can score a A for this subject...

if not i gonna retake it...I SWEAR !!






ya...went to fetch my mum at jurong point just now...

well....ate dumpling mee wif char siew.....*yum yum*...

damn nice man i swear...gonna eat again !!!

here are the pic of the mee :

yeah...did not attend school for 2 days alredy....yesterday PTM i was so shocked that Miss tan did not call me....heng ar...if not gonna kena scold by her again.....grrrr...

well...gonna be busy for these few week...from tml onwards i'll be going back to temple to do stuff as we gonnna have a grand celebration from the 1st of june to the 10 of june...tired !!! so i'll be seldom online....the only time i can online is midnight bah...about 12am when i reach home lor...if anything just msg me via HP bah...easier...

tml going back to do decoration liao...shag...then sunday think gonna go see yew keng bah...heehee...bro westcamp ask de....but sis hellokitty dun wan me to go cos i'll be having chinese O level exam on monday....shall see how bah...TRY not to go yeah...

holiday just sucks lor...2 camp....D & T camp and dunno wat stupid camp at thearound the end of the holiday....grrr....waste my time and my money oso...DUN THINK I'LL BE GOING !!! then remedial for so many day....wow....gonna kill most of my brain cells man...

haha talk about yesterday...went to town wif liting...she was wearing the uniform lor...diao !!!! haha cos she ended school late cos of some farewell bleah bleah bleah..ya...waited for her at bangkit LRT...then went to take 190 to town...on the way saw jason tan...yup...we went town and jason went home...me and liting was taling crap throughout the journey man..so fun..heehee...

went to far east plaza first and ate subway....*yum yum*...finally...my first meal of the day...grrr...lafter than li ting went to buy something for her sis...but too bad no more liao...heehee....so went to wisma and collect her HP.....(purpose of going town)...very fast then finish liao lor...then walk around to takashimaya cos li ting wanna buy donut for her sis...and she bought me one too....so sweet of her....thanks ya liting...heehee...

then went to heeren and shop around...we sat outside NUM and slack lor...then bernard called and wanna meet us...kuku lor he...ask him come heeren and find us but he said he dun go low-class area....bullshit...as if he very high class.....BLEAH !!!

went o paragon and meet them....he and yu xiang werre at ADIDAS shop....after that we just walk around cos yu xiang wanna buy wallet...and he bought one...forget wat brand le....$40 over...haha...rich boy man...then went to takashimaya again...went to eat KFC...ya and wwent home after that cos kinda tired...so sian....

then ah di alex called and jio to play basketball...agreed to meet them at first but in the end something pop up...so did not go and meet them...sian...

ya....end here ya...love ya all !!! hug hug !!!!

phew...finally went back to school after a long break....( well..self declare holiday ) did not attend school on last thursday and friday...when i got back...everyone ware saying this to me.."wow..finally u are back !!! " ...grrr..wat the hell..i was only not in school for 2 days only and they miss me so much..? heehee...


ya....the time-table have changed...for this week only...so...its kinda weird cos we are having chinese intensive remedial for the fisrt 5 period...sick man...facing all those chinese words for 5 period...grrrr....lucky i get to sleep in between lesson...heehee...last period was chemistry....soooo tired...but tend to play wif chemical...so fun..and took several pic of it...here it is :

nice chemical mix....wif JAJA !!!

RaiHAn goNnA KiLL mE WiF tHaT cHeMiCaL !!!

NiChOlAs CoLin TAn JuSt tRy To KiLL mE bY PuTtInG tHe pUmPeR iNto mY nOSe....ChOKe mE tO dEaTh !!!

ya....talking about yesterday...went to meet andy ( di di ) after school..went home and changed...ya...went to study at library...first time ya !!! miracle do happens ok !!! and reach home about 12am plus...*yawn yawn*...so tired lor...and have to wake up early today for school...grrr...haha btw...i found out that bus is a best place for ppl to take picture...i love taking bus in picture...gonna take more...yeah !!! here are some of it i took yesterday in bus 67 :

NiC iS sO eMo iN BuS

i TriEd tO aCt cOoL bUt iN tHe eNd i fOuNd oUt tHAt iM aLrEaDy cOoL

CNt a MoNkEy StICk His tOnGuE oUt oF His mOuTh...?

but today's lesson was totally great and fun man...sleep during chinese intensive remedial...do lots of maths after recess...and did a few fun pratical for physics...yeah !!! i love miss tan siao ser...shes a great from teacher ya...3 cheers for her !!!

went home early today lor..and here to blog...erm...from next week onwards i'll be very busy...cos of my temple stuff and school stuff...so sorry if im unable to get to u all...SORRY !!! but will try to squeezeeeeeeeeeeeeeee some time out for my buddy and friends ya...cheers !!!

oh man...went to clubbing yesterday ya...wif : angelina , xavier , jaryl , jake , emily , yew hui , andrew and his dear , hellven , janice , eugenia and kelvin...oh man its my first time at that club man....erm....not bad...arrrr...

kinda fun and enjoyable one...with all those grinding and rubbling....and i kiss yew hui...oh man my face turn red...but....SO HAPPY !!! finally i get to kiss her after 4 years...haha...

went home early ya...about 2am we leave that club...went to maxwell market to eat...damn thristy...and was there till 3am i think....went home...CAB !!! wow was damn tired man...slept till 2 plus the next day and...wooo...my whole body was aching...haha...

ya..thats my fun day of clubbing ya...gonna go there next time ya...wif lina and gang !!

Forget everything...carry on wifth my life...

carry on with what im doing now...just change here and there...

my result - gonna study real hard...lets mug wif my buddy...
think gonna do something effective about it...

my relationship - wish that u can have a good relationship ya...
we are the best buddy from now on...hug...
promise ya...whoever have date first must inform another...

my family - who care so much now...i just need a place to sleep...
talk to me if u wan...if not....forget it...

yeah....EMOs' gone...and when it gonna back again...? i dunno...lets see...

Family is killing me...my mum actually ask me GO AND DIE...

because of one job thingy...she ask me go and die...one day i shall do it...

i held ur advice...i find job...and when i found one...u dun allow me to work...

just bcos its night shift...and u scare i go to other ppl house to stay over...

have so wat if i have sex at other place...? im 18...and i know what im doing...

i ain gonna invite trouble to myself...ur son ain't that stupid...

and rest assure...if i were to have anything happen outside...

i will not bring it back home...no one will be involve...

i will not let this house to have anything to do wif it...

even if i were to die outside...who cares...many ppl wanna see me die...



how i wish that my da ge will just bring me back...and end everything...

sorry my buddy...the once cheerfu Nicholas is dead once again...

i promise once that i will stand up strong..but problem just come...non-stop...

i dunno how long i can still take it...i think i will really collapse soon...

very soon...now i just drift my day...everyday is so aimless...lifeless...



my exam result...sucks to the core...i failed every singel subject...

i have no courage to face anyone...especially ah koon kor...

he put so much hope on me...cos he dun wan me to follow his foot step...

i really have no mood to continue my O level anymore...really no mood...

every test result is like less than 30...how am i going to pass the O level...?

how am i going to face ppl who put so much hope on me...?



i really feel like moving out of this house...really...this place is nothing...

but a place for me to sleep only...i wanna leave this house soon...

but i cant...i cant support myself...no place for me to go...no place...

the only thing that i can think about is...to quite school and start to work...

to be independent...to support myself...to feed myself...



even if i were to die on the roadside...no one will pity me...

as i'm just another eye sore in other ppl's eyes...

just a nuisence...an idiot...an moron...a freaking guy...

who cares...thats the way i am...




i tried to change...as someone told me to do so...

when i was undergoing process of changing...that person left me...

that person which i need most...which i treasure most...left me...

that person was suffering...im also suffering...

but why i insist to continue...? cos i love you...

why i insist on carry on..? cos i love you...

but u give up...u give up on me...cos i bring u more sorrow and pain...

i was wrong from the start...all the things i did was wrong...

i now regretted...but...is it any use...? can i bring u back...

no............no...........no..........

u left me...and thats it....u left me...no mater how much i miss u...

no matter how many things i talk to u...u just treat me coldly...

the once bright smile on ur face can never be found...i can never see it again...

cos i just wipe it away...with my own sinful hand...

i tried to bring it back...but its too late...everything is just too late...



u gave me many chance...but i just did not grab it well...

everytime..chance just slip through my hand...right infront of me and ur eyes...

when i try to grab it hard...u took my hand and let go of the chance...

u have gave up on me...completely...

i tired to get it back...but no...u are so perseverence...

no means no...and this no...is a forever scar in my heart...



really...now i gonna ask u the last time...

will u give me one more chance...?

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well...A wanna dedicate this song to B...enjoy...

Beyonce-"Be With You"

Ooh baby

I love the way you make me feel It slows down time
Come in my bedroom and turn off the lights
You whisper softly in my earMakes me unwind
The way you touch me Lets me know you're mine

chorus

I'd rather be with you
Because i love the way You scream my name
And there's no other man That gives me what i want
And makes me feel this way

I'd rather be with you because You hustle hard to take care of me
I'd rather be with you
Boy i'd rather be with you

I love the way you look at meStare into my eyes
What do they say to you Boy don't be shy
Tonight's the night your fantasies Will all come true
I am your woman I belong to you

There is nothing i won't do for you
I know my soul connected me to you
I feel so safe when i'm alone with you

I'm holding back nothin Saving it all for you
Baby i love making love to you
It's like a high i can't come down from you

I'd rather be with you
Because i love the way You scream my name
And there's no other man That gives me what i want
And makes me feel this way

I'd rather be with you because You hustle hard to take care of me
I'd rather be with you
Boy i'd rather be with you

I'd rather be with you oh yea
Boy i rather be with you

I'd rather be with you oh yea
Boy i rather be with you

I'd rather be with youBecause i love the way You scream my name
And there's no other man That gives me what i want And makes me feel this way

I'd rather be with you because You hustle hard to take care of me
I'd rather be with you
Boy i'd rather be with you

I don't want nobody else
I ain't goin no where I'm happy with you You got me baby
I ain't thinking about Nobody else but you baby

mahjong yesterday !!!!

wif angelina...xavier and emily...hui qing went off and meet her boyf...

erm...reach xavier houser at about 10 plus i think...

wow...so tired man...cos i was out from 1pm till night...

wanna sleep but no choice...gnna win money before go home...heehee...

played for 1 round...and nly won 3 dollar...&^&(&*^$^&*T*)&)...

then stop for awhile and went to nearby 7-11...

was damn hungry man...cannot take it...

went back to xavier house...and everyone was half dead...haha...

and i'm still energetic...dunno why...maybe thinking of u...?

played for another half round before heading home...*yawn*...

well..lazy to wear my shoe and my belt...so just took taxi barefooted...

who cares !!! i do wat i like...

reached home at about 3am plus bah i think...kao....was damn tired...

and i woke up 12 plus in the morning...grrrr...



hope u reach home as i told u to do so...before 6am...

even a phoenix can oso be revived....with the power of love...

i will be the power of love...and u will be the phoenix...

i will revived ur smile...ur cheerfulness...ur everything...

which i have cause u to loss...

all i need is time..and tolerance...and i believe u can give me that...

cause i know...me and u...still love each other...

here to update about A and B...

A and B decide to let each other go...cos A and B is suffering...

so they prefer to let go...

so....their love story end in a sad way....they choose to let go...

hope A will find the right one...

and B will find the right one too...


end of the story of the 2 date...thanks...

A will bring B's smile back no matter wat...

A is over concern...which lead to over sensitive...

now A and B is on a unstable relationship....but that dun just beat A...A just wanna continue this....will B give him one more chance...?

all A wan is B to fogret C...just a simple request...

yo...wanna tell a story here about 2 dating person...erm...its a sweet but also a bitter one...so...hope ya all enjoyed !!!

erm...first lets name this 2 date 'A' and 'B'...'A' is a wild , hot tempered , talkative , energetic person...'B' is also a wild , ' prince ' , talkative person...they started off knowing each other at friendster...A asked B out for dinner on one particular night...and they met each other for the first time...A had a crush on B on first sight...and they started off as a friend at first...but soon...A confessed to B...and they move on to date...

but A is a very hot tempered person...B hate it so much...almost everytime they quarrel...but A just think that is just a small one and no big deal...so he just carry on...and in the end...B cant take it anymore and told A to lets be friend better...

A did not give up...and they become date again...and A promised that he will change for B...he dun get angry so easily...he tried to control himslef...not to make B angry...

A is also a very jealous person...bcos B had lots of suitor...B is attractive and many ppl wanna make friend wif B...and soon A get to be more jealous...whenever ppl msg B...A will get jealous...cos A love B too much...and he scared that A will lost B...so he tried everything he can to win B's heart...but on the other hand....B like another person....lets name him C...

B like C before he know A...but C has other date...and its impossible for B and C to be together...A told B to forget him....and B tried and B is still trying now...A was very glad...and A tried very hard not to get jealous cos B have own rights to make friend....and the trust must be there...

till now...A and B is still dating...but they have not progress to stead statues...so wat should A do...? A really love B and he just wanna be together wif B...and now it seems to be a 'trouble-maker' which keep on telling B that who likes B all these....and its getting on A's nerve...

A is not rich...
A is not good-looking...
A is not perfect...

but A's love for B is true...and he know that...B told A that the love for A is not that much...that just broke A's heart...but...A dun give up...A strongly believe that B will fall for A deeply one day...

B is not a romantic person...but...the feeling...the passion...just gets into A's heart...all A wish for is B to really settle down and think about their relationship...since B like A....why not just give each other a chance...?

A love B so much...A tried to forget the sad things B bought to A...so....JUST GIVE EACH OTHER CHANCE !!!


------end of story-----

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Kao...its about 3pm on the tuesday afternoon...my family day...and im here blogging...heehee...and im having my D&T paper this morning...just another paper that i gave up...never ever pass my theory even for once man...yeah !!!! and im proud of it...heehee...at least i can score very well for my pratical....thats enough man...im contented...YEAH !!! Nicholas Thng Fu Jie rocks !!!

oh ya...this morning one farking hilarious things happened...lil bro syamiran called me at about 7am plus...when i was having my sweet dream..he asked me where am i and i told him i was sleeping....he was so farking shocked and ask why am i still sleeping...wa kao...he mixed up the time man...the paper start at 10.45am and he was in school at 7am plus..WTF !!! i was laughing like hell man...

think he went home after that....and i continue my sleep...kao..cant get to sleep after a good laugh...manage to struggle till 9.50am...changed and went off to school...saw Nicholas Colin Tan in the train...ya...went to school together...and saw Ayumi zhu...lol...(only we know)...reached school about 10.30am....though we are late...but many other are much later than us lor..kns..went to the hall and only a few classmate were there...shag....then i went to canteen and shouted everyone to go up to the hall...haha...and everyone kena shocked by me...

saw lil bro syamiran and i laughted like hell...haha...so funny...and ya..went in to the hall...AND SLEEP !!! wa kao i slept for almost 2 hour man...the paper duration is 2 and a half hour....well...last half an hour keep talking to ah di alex...haha...play here and there..chat non stop...like as if its not a examination hall like that...WHO CARES !!!

went home after that...and here to blog !!!

sorry for neglecting my blog ya...dust everywhere....*er hmm*...kinda choke by the dust.....been busy these few day ya...towning...sun-tanning blah blah blah..dun be shock when u see a black nicholas in 2 weeks time...im wanna be tann !!!!

went to sentosa on the 6th of may 2007...wif hellven...eugenia and kelvin...oh man...the sun was damn perfect for sun-tanning lor...yeah !!! just a few minute of lying at the beach get u to be tanned...so good...

reached there about 2pm...took the train to the beach...i was so high that day...been singing all the way...and was singing out loud ok !!!! been living in my on lil world...haha...tanned for about 30 minute...and went to buy alcohol halfway...oh man so shiok ok...and went to bath...cos kinda late...gonna go town to have dinner...so went to bath and went off to town...

went kobayashi...they have their dinner there...and i just sat there as im down on cash...so ya...went home after that....as hellven and kelvin and qi en and matthew went to see spider-man 3...ya...went home and sleep like a log ok...cos im damn exhausted after a long day outside...aww...

on the 7th of may 2007...which is today....went to meet zuo yi at bishan...she was cryinng over the phone when she called me...she's having serious family problem...really very serious....i feel sad too...well...everything is fated...so...just accept it...i oso accept my fate...went home after that...though can have a sleep...but..*ring !!!!!!! *...

hellven msg me and ask if wanna meet at town...agreed...changed...and went town to meet them...don di di...eugenia and hellven was at xin wang...and hellven passed me the money for the selling of PSP thingy...soon after kelvin joined us...drank soya bean milk...played bluffin xin wang...and we went off after that...went to takashimaya to have dinner...

but i went to food court first wif eugenia...don di di say his brother ( who look exactly like me ) was wif his parent..so i went to look for him to see if really we look alike...but to my great disappointment...he was not there....grrrrr...went to pepper lunch to meet the rest...

ate salmon rice...ya not bad...and sat down to chat for awhile...and i went off to buy cake form bakerzin for someone( only we know can liao )...took MRT home after that...sent *someone* home...and i head back my sweet home...took 172 and doze off on the way...nearly miss my stop man...grrrr...

and now...im here to do this blog thing wif some idiot dirty my blog...crazy ass...wanna create trouble come here...siao...haha...cannot be hot-tempered....cool down.....*woooooooo*...

see ya all...i going to cool off at my bed ya....see ya !!!!

FoRmAl ShIrT jUSt dUn sUiT mE . . .

NiCk aND HeLLvEn

tHe mOnKeYs ! ! !

Me aND tHe MoNkEy ! ! !

EuGeNia LoOk sO gOrGeOuS aFtEr mAkE uP ! ! !

StUck uP . . . . BleAh ! ! !

EmOoOOoooOoOoOo
shi t...finally can update my blog liao....grrrrrrr....these few day i tried but cannnot access to blogger...finally today can liao cos i change my google account....oh my lord...thanks !!!

been busy these few days ya....T-O-W-N-E-R !!! been going to town alomost everyday ya....not sick at all...wif a bunch of funny peers...my dear di di DON...the pretty gal EUGENIA...and her drunk coursin...the rabbit KELVIN...the fat fat de BRYAN...and last but noy least...the monkey HELLVEN...he accompanied me almost everyday man....really appreaciate it alot....accompany me to study....have dinner...go swimming...talk crap...blah blah blah...btw this coming sunday MAYBE go tanning at Sentosa !!! yahoooooo !!! its been so long since i last tan ya...

haha was fun yesterday...monday...30th of april 2007...met hellven at chinatown cos he went there to take money from his mum ( i think so...or he went there and accompany his mum to take money...? i dunno )...met him 2pm plus going to 3pm...and we straight away head down to town.....*yawn*...was having my exam in the morning and i was dead tired...gonna flunk my social studies paper man...(^^$%^*T&*(Y(...i overslept during that paper !!!

reached cine at about 3pm plus...DON was wif one gal whom he likes...wooooooo...di di finally grown up liao...*touched*....and Eugenia met up wif us soon after...we went to Xin Wang to have a bowl of beancurd before going to basement to have our dinner...ya the japanese food quite nice...Don di di recomment de...haha...not bad...

then their school friend came and met up wif us...oh man they say Su ping was one of them....lol...Hellven they all very bad...kep on laughing at her cos her tone is kinda weird...but hor i dun think funny leh...its kinda normal...so ya...i ain't that bad ok !!!

after eat le then walk around...went arcade...then went to heeren...cos hellven wanna shop for clothes....in the end he only bought a tie..balck one wif a skeleton head at the front...kinda coooooooooool....eeeeeeeeee...then suddenly angelina called me....shock sia...she was at marina heading to town...then say wanna meet...so meet lor...she was wif Emily , jaryl , xavier and shalom...haha...and we met at heeren...yup...just chat awhile and they went off...we went back to cine...

went to Xin Wang to have our dinner...ate quite alot of things ya...soooo full...kelvin cane and fnd us after his work...he though there is mahjong session at my house but in the end dun have...sorry ya...but kelvin did not eat at xin wang...we went to youth park just to accompany him to eat...wa kao....many ppl there lor...and hell lots of hance there....suddenly feel like dancing wif them ya....awwwww !!!

we went back to cine and we just slack around cos we dun wanna go home so early...then a friend of Hellven , elaine , called him...she said she booked a pool table and asked hellven they all to go there...so we went there lor...me and kelvin just seat there like a block of wood...till Eugenia's coursin came...she was DRUNK !!!! wa lau its dangerous for a gal to drink ya...so no next time k...?

so ya....gtg now...see ya all...take care alright...will update more ya....take care !!!!