nothing much in school today lor...so sian...a tiring day indeed...ah di alex went hm...cos he's having sore eyes...can't hardly open his eyes...and he look exactly like chu hao..lol...small eyes...i was damn bored lor...but lucky got colin and yi ren to accompany...if not gonna faint man...start doing folio for D&T...so shag...and so boring...

damn emo...my grandma was in hospital yesterday...she fall down at home twice and complain that whole body was aching the next day...so ya....went for a check up and have to stay in hospital for further observation...so sad...she is the one i love and she dote on me so much...can't think ( and dun wanna think ) wat will happen when she was away...gonna cry for days...and regret for life...goona visit her tml wif my parents...hope tml come faster......

good news from yesterday...yesterday inviting of god was a success !!! a big one indeed...i just prove everyone wrong man...I DID IT...NICHOLAS THNG FU JIE AKA AH JIE FINALLY DID IT...after 2 time of trying....i have made it...hope ah koon kor is there to see...but well...there are more to improve on...tnks to zuo yi...for giving me moral support...and not forget...ah hiang aunty and ah leong uncle...they are the best !!!

ya..and today....gave syamiran lil bro $50...cos i own him birthday present...so ya...gave him $50 to buy wat he want...so ya..he was damn hell happy man...well....just like to see my bro and sis smile..thats wat i ask for...nothing much in return...

but well...one things made me sad till now...i still dun understand why this person hate me so much...and the person who is no other than tay bi wen...well...just dun understand why his attiude just suddenly change over the night...towards me...i dun think i have done anything wrong...and well....we nv talk for about 3 years already...

once he was my best lil bro...but dunno wat made him changes so much...he join gang...learn to smoke...learn to fight...retain...i was damn hell sad...once a good lil boy...now becoming like this...i was wondering...is this my fault to make him change like this...?

i'm his first friend when he step into greenridge...everyone ws saying that i look like him...and he looks like me too...i was so happy...maybe this is wat we call fate bah...evereything was getting well along...only till when i found out that he smoke...and start turning astray...i was so sad...i try all my best to get him back...

just miss the day when we every morning will go to CC and play basketball...i'm the one who teach him basketball skill...cos he's a left hander....just like me...just fell getting along wif him...but why the suddel change...can u pls tell me why....?

can tell u all...een till now...i still canot figure out why...i always trest him s my bro..even till now...but whenever i look at him...he will just stare and " diao " me..i was so sad...why would someone whom u trust and get along so well suddenly turn against u...? the felling was just undiscrible...damn heart broken...

although i have many bro and sis now...but which one is true hearted...? which one is fake...? i cannot tell...and i dun wanna tell...knowing the answer makes me fell more sad...more sorrow...sometime...knowing too much is not a good things...but one thing i sure wanna know...

TAY BI WEN...MY ONCE GOOD BROTHER...WHY U SUDDENLY CHANGE UR ATTITUDE TOWARDS THE ONCE U CALLED BROTHER...? IS THERE ANYTHING THAT WE CAN'T JUST SEAT DOWN AND SOLVE...I DUN CARE IF U TREAT ME AS BRO NOW..EVEN FROM THE PAST...EVEN IF U DUN TREAT ME AS ONE...JUST TELL ME...AND I WANNA KNOW WHY U CHANGE SO MUCH...IS THERE ANYTHING BOTHERING U AT THAT POINT OF TIME...?