Back to posting yeah...just had an accident on wednesday...fell down from altar and my chest hit the table so hard that i nearly faint...i did faint la...but....nvm...lucky my shi fu was behind me when i fell down...if not i really gonna hit my head on another altar again...and when i landed..i grab the oil lamp and oil was all around the floor...and..i damaged 2 important things in my temple...haiz...

Was sent to hospital immediately...cried as the pain was unbearable...shit...cried infront of everyone man...*sob sob*....when in the hospital....boring~~ mum came into the room and have a look on me...with tears in her eyes...and the first thing i said to her is ' can't die yet..stil alive '...finally see her laugh..sorry for making everyone worry yeah...Ah Khoon Kor , Zuo Yi ,
Zheng Sheng , Ah Leong uncle , Lao Da Uncle and my family was outside the hospital waiting for me to discharge...haha....everyone was relieve when they saw me...and i still can joke with them...

Lucky everything is fine now...if not...bye bye everyone...applied leave for this week...maybe next week also cos my condition seems not improving much...the chest area is still bruise...the cut on my hand and leg have not heal...how am i gonna face customer with these things on..? damn it...

I remember Zuo Y told me one thing...Ah Khoon kor was very sad when i was inside....he told Zuo Yi that he hope the one kena accident is him and not me...it's so touching that i nearly burst into tear on the spot...but i stopped...all i can do now is to really do my best in temple...to me...temple is more important than anything else...really...

Christmas is coming and everyone is celebrating...and me...lonely and sad...no one understand...summarise up this year...DISASTERIOUS~~many thing had happened...mostly is the sad things...relationship...family....friends....the usual things...happening again and again...don't know how many time i've said this..i'm sick of everything !!

Answer...where're you...?

Love where are you..?

happiness wheere are you..?

I've bben searching for these few thing over the year...and up til now they are still hiding...my search is not going to end here...but if i continue...i might just end up being a patient of the woodbridge...

And now...sleeping become another problem...i just can't sleep no matter how tired i am...i've tried...and i couldn't...thus u can see i'm blogging at this wee hour...evryday my eye bag get darker and darker...soon all of u will see me as a walking zombie...and now my hearing problem is getting worst...people actually need to repeat more than once for me to hear them...

Hope that next year will be a better year...but...i doubt so...i knew it...

Raining for the past few day yeah...just like my heart...rain and rain and rain...no sunshine to make me active and alive again...You al can say i'm emo now...whatever...yes i am...so...?

Many things have been troubling me for the past few day...financial problem...relationship problem...blah blah blah...i can't even have a proper sleep at night...therefore i'm here to make a stupid and meaningless post...

Now then i know what kind of person i am...uncontented...greedy...proud...stubborn...attitude...problematic...unfriendly...irritating...reckless person...i don't have any good things for people to say...all i get from people is " oh that nicholas... a notorous guy..." and yup...thats the fact...i always deny it...now after what someone had said...i have to learn to accept the fact and be contented with what i have...once its gone...it will not come back...

I've tried to love someone...but always get the bad ending...Either the one i like choose someone else...if not will break up in the end...i blame no one but myself...i'm always the one who ruined everything...always mess up everything...i hate myself...really...how i wish i could just vanish from the surface of this earth and go back to where i belong...why they wanna sent me down and take all these suffering...?

I got so many buddy...but how many really care about me...?

Pauline : really thanks for your help my girl...borrow me money to settle my things...i really owe u too much...


Wan Zhen : Thanks for being my sister yeah...i really trust u and Pauline very much...


Syamiran : you are the best lil bro i ever had...seeing u so happy with her oso make me happy...stay happy yeah...


Li Ting : be more confident in yourself yeah...going out with you are always the thing i look forward to...


I really don't know how to handle relationship things...really...i've tried to be a better person...and yeah...i've proven that i'm not good at relationship at all...sorry to those that i've have hurt before...

Nothing much to post...just plainly disappointed...

*currently in a foul mood...do not disturb unless necessary...*

This is me dancing Para Para....its the first time in my life alright !!!

Chalet with the sisters was fun man...all started on wednesday 28th of nov 2007...This chalet was planned long time ago for two purpose..one is to clelbrate our leaving of greenrdige secondary school....another purpose is to celebrate Pauline's birthday !!! like the surprise we gave u girl...? sweet ~~

Woke up at about 10 plus on wednesday...preparing for chalet...all were suppose to meet at my house and know what..Pauline was late again....as usually la...nothing new anyway...All were sitting at the back of my father's lorry while i was enjoying aircon at the front...bleah !!!

Reached downtown east at about 1pm...And damn it we have to check in at 2.30pm....&^&%*%(&^(&%&()*...we have to wait for another one and a half hour before we can check in...what kind of service is that man...i would prefer aloha Loyang than this rundown place man...shoot !!

Went to escape themepark after that and know wat...rain started to pour...YEAH !!! my prediction was correct !!! lalalalalala~~~dun mess with my mouth alright...when comes to predict weather...my mouth is 100% correct...even weather telecast do make mistake sometime while i don't...(*proud*)...No choice we have to seat around and wait for the rain to stop....lalalalala....and Wan Zhen won a bloody pink monkey which causes us to have flu for the rest of the day...damn that monkey and i swear that the fur wil be pull out by me one of these day...And lastly went to the haunted house...blah blah blah...boring~~~

Went for barbecue at night...start the fire..and i'm off for Cineleisure...having N.U.M meeting there ad everyone must be present...this is when i've learned some lesson by our Director , Shenzi...listen to his talk really makes me learn something...and it ends around 3am i think...and shared cab with few ambassador who is staying at Pasir Ris and Hougang...that Colin PS us sia...we waited for him to take cab as he stay at Pasir Ris...nevermind then...u owe us one Colin !!!

Back to the chalet and the barbecue ended...Grrrrr...i wanted to have some food de lor...and the clear without waiting for me...*sob sob*....no choice have to eat cup noodle....and there goes my sleeping time....*yawn*...

Second day was the most fun one...Li Ting and Sin Yee will be with us only at night because Sin Yee wil be back to Singapore at about 4pm +...so yeah....a boring one at the chalet room...so no choice have to find some entertainment...and that is to torture Pauline and Wan Zhen !!! the girl were bruise all around and was done by not me but my towel !!! sweet ~~

And when nightfall...Barbecue time !!! chicken wings...hotdogs...crabstick...sotong...satay....YumYum*...and finally Sin Yee and Li Ting came..with a birthday cake for Pauline !!! very nice sia the cake..i think i ate the biggest portion of it and its so damn nice...after that...ARCADE TIME !!

and my gosh i played Para Para for the first time in my life la !!! there is video of me dancing..waiting for Pualine to upload to youtube first alright..so everyone please stay tune...and the girl say my dance was nice !!! sweet girl ~~~

These is the picture we took during the chalet...enjoy !!!

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Me and Wan Zhen

















Me and Yew Hui

















Act cute Trio

















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She touched my sacred part !!!

















Ghost image arrrrrrr !!!