Whats the point of saying sorry after what you've done ? No point crying over spill milk now . Just don't regret what you have chose . Because things will not be the same , no matter how hard you try to recover it .

And , whats the point of blaming this and that after everything . All you can blame , is yourself . No one else . Lead your life from now onward , and i lead mine .

Saddness ? what's that . I already don't know , and i don't know how to be sad . Too much have become numb instead . Happy face on me look so fake now . So fake that i'm afraid of myself now .

Silly , silly and more silly .

For the past few weeks , been busy with plenty of stuff . Working at Raffle Place for Cheferon , temple stuff took up almost half of my week . Phew . Its time for relaxing man . With the money i earned , i'm gonna spend like nobody business . But sad to say , Shaun is gonna nag at me if i spend all my money on myself . He's gonna request me to transfer three quarter of my pay to his account . Just joking la dumb ass .

Wednesday and sunday is a 'no-outing day' for me man . Been book-ed by temple . Everything seems fine now . And for goodness sake , hungry ghost festival gona start less than 2 weeks . Will be busy attending dinner and stuff . SIAN ~

After this friday and saturday , i'll be jobless again la ~ WHY WHY WHY !?!

我相信這個世界上 ，不同事物 ，無論大小 ，都有它的功能 。好与壞 ，全憑個人 。我舉個例子 。單單的一片小膠紙 ，功能是可以把撕掉的紙張再合起來 。相反的 ，它也可以結束一個人的生命 。只要把一個人的呼吸通道 ，用膠紙把它封住 ，那麼就結束了他的生命了。

做事情 ，不是怎麼做 ，而是做事的程序 。簡單的例子 ，當你泡一杯奶茶時 ，你是先倒凍牛奶 ，然後才倒熱茶 ？還是先倒熱茶 ，然後才倒凍牛奶 ？

如果先倒凍牛奶 ，然後才倒熱茶 。熱茶的溫度會溫柔的將凍牛奶溫暖起來 ，這樣奶就不會凝固 。相反的 ，如果先倒熱茶 ，然後才倒凍牛奶 。凍牛奶突然接觸到熱茶的溫度 , 而瞬時間驚慌失措 ，然後凝固起來 。

On the 23rd of March 1989 , a abnormal child was borned in NUH . The mother was sweating like hell due to the undescrible amount of pain . While the father was so happy . Finally there is someone to continue the family line . And the mother and child is both safe and sound .

After a few days in hospital , the baby finally went back to a place at commonwealth where he called it home . Grandparent and neighbour were all there to welcome the new member of the Thng family . Mum was the one carrying me while sster was beside holding mum's clothes . Grandma was there , waiting eagerly to carry me and bring me to toilet to bath . Relative were all surrounding me , trying to see me smile .

Everything is so strange to me though . First time i see so many people around me . I don't understand a single thing of what they said , so i cried . Grandma quickly carried me and try to make me happy . To my surprise , i stopped and i smile at her . First time i felt so happy , cos of the shaking and the funny sound my grandma made . After that , she carried me to the toilet and bathed me . She shaved my hair , clean my body and i was bought to pray to my house god and ancestor . FIrst time in contact with someone called god . I still remember , the statue of a white lady , holding a vase on her left hand was smiling at me . The smile , is so warm . And i smiled again .

Grandma was carrying me using one hand , another hand with something called joss stick . She mumble something which i don't understand and she put my hand together and shake 3 time . I felt so tired after that . I cried again , to tell them that i wanna sleep . But i was not put to sleep though . I still have to go through another thing called ' achknowledge of god parent ' . My god mother , whom is my father's elder sister , achknowledge me as her god son . I remember she putted two gold necklace on my neck and she kissed my forehead . Finally i can go to sleep .

Life is like a book . There are many many chapters , regardless its good , bad , happy or sad . Up and down , is the climate , just like life , up and down , exactly like roller coaster ride . I don't believe in smooth sailing throughout your life chapter though .

Usually book starts with good starting , which is the beginning of my life , and also the starting of my trouble . As time goes by , many thing happened , which makes what i am today . Good or bad ? Up to my love one , friends , family to see and judge .

I'm quite a fortunate person to be born in this family . So do my sister . Since young we get what we want , we do what we want . Everyone try their best to give us the best . My sister is talented in drawing , and she's getting a deploma in La Salle art school . I wish her all the best . And me . i'm continuing working towards my dream , to ba a chef . I don't wish to cook for rich people , neither do i wish to cook for nobility . All i wish is to cook for two person . My dad and my mum .

From a immature small boy to a young adult , it takes a long time and many thing for that ' evolution ' to happen . Consider a strong boy maybe , due to the environment i'm living at since young . My family is very average , but my dad makes it a cosy environment for us . I fully understand how he feel during that time . My mum was a ordinary housewife back them . Need not worry about income , need not work . But now , both of them have to work very hard , real hard . To clear debts , to support us , to pay this and that . All these is easy to say than done . They have grow old already , really .

Character comes in and goes out of my book .good or bad , close and unclose . Those are memories . Frankly speaking i have more sweet memories than bad one . At a point of time , my thinking is very negative . Due to some people and some ' scene ' , i learn to remain positive . Once a girl told me : " You want to remain negative , and think that everything is against you , or you want to change , and think that everything is nice for you ? " . Just a simple sentence like this changed my mindset , my thinking . words are powerful , it depends on when you use it and how you use it .

I use to have this girlfriend and my bestie . She taught me a lot of thing . We used to talk happily on phone , and face to face . We can talk about everything under the sun , for hours and hours . Due to my stupidility and reckless behaviour , she left me , mentally . We hardly talk now , we hardly contact . Our conversation always end less than 10 sentence . I tried to show that i'm sorry , but its too late . Once a chapter is closed , it is closed .

Life still have to go on . Just like a race . Complete the race no matter what happen . If you fall , stand up again and continue . And human is just so cheap .When thing starts to happen then people start to apologize . Starting to think . When a thing happen , they starts to blame this and that , and will start to say : " should have done this/that earlier on . " Never to think about the consequence and the outcome . I'm such a person . And now , i've learned how to ' visualise ' and think about the consequence . The biggest mistake i've made it to hurt you over and over again my girl .

Our chapter has already end ? or it hasn't ? I'm waiting for a reply .

How fragile human can be ?